2 min readJan 19, 2023
Arguing vs. defending myself have been topics that in my time have been hills I’m no longer willing to die on. I have a long relationship as caregiver with my mom and vice versa, and we have a unique relationship. Now that we are both older and hopefully wiser, I’ve learned to let go of grievances and let something like forgiveness into my heart.
- Feeling attacked over my finances, my mother is very thrifty. I do spoil myself as a trauma response, but it is also my first house and I am feathering my nest so to speak. I do need to work on my savings, I admit! But my mother’s tone doesn’t help. It did help to confront her in the moment I felt the twinge of judgment in her voice when she did inquire. She did relent and seemed to understand.
- Letting me sleep, another trauma response. I do tend to stay up late and keep that night time to myself because it is a quiet time that I can keep to myself. She’s more understanding of my need to sleep in and make my own hours as a freelancer.
- Being thankful. My mother seems more thankful and grateful since she’s been on a special diet, I’ve been doing most of her meal prep. She seems to recognize the things I do for her, finally. I think realizing that her parathyroid may be a problem has made her more aware of the people in her life that help her.
I feel that there has been more recognition of my work and sacrifices lately. I feel appreciated. There has been less arguing because of this mutual recognition. I feel seen, if that sounds cheesy I know it.